Sunday, November 4, 2012

Grateful for what i SEE

These last 10 days have been verrrrry difficult.  I am on a, so called, drug holiday from methergine, which comes around every 6 months like clockwork.  I've been through this before, but this time I am also taking Venlafaxine (generic for Effexor) which has not been a good medication for me.  I've had a paradoxical reaction, which means for me it has heightened my anxiety and hypersensitivity to all sorts of perceived negative stimuli.  This was all somehow offset somewhat by the methergine.  Since I discontinued the methergine, I have been unable to sleep more than 4 or 5 hours a night.  I am strung out on the one hand, like I've had too much coffee, and drooping from fatigue on the other.  Needless to say, this is driving me CRAZY!!!!

In spite of all this and in part, because of it, I have begun to take walks every day.  And what I see as I walk is one of the highlights of my day.  Because I actually - see - incredible things.

For that, I'm very grateful.










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