On Vacation w/ Hypersensitivity intact -
|Motorcycle art in Moss Landing|
Crustacean at Monterey Acquarium where I became
seriously over stimulated, nauseated, and dizzy. Still
it was fantastic!
I've known for a long time that I was especially sensitive to many things, including vibes from
people, noise, light, personal space, environment around me to name just a few. But this trip is bringing home to me how much I am buffeted by it all, minute to minute, even though I have actually developed, over the years, many tools to make myself more comfortable and centered. And, I seem to be getting more sensitive as I get older. Needless to say, all this has an impact on my headaches and my vacation!
Each stop so far on this trip has required readjustment on my part and taken a little toll even though I have enjoyed all of them. Added to my "usual" hypersensitivity is the problem with my left foot, which I injured in a trip/ fall over a month ago. It is sore, a little swollen and discolored in spite of all my best efforts w/ ice, healing creams, anti-inflammatories, massage, etc. I can't walk comfortably very far, and I can't ride my bike, both of which I love to do. It leaves me feeling off center and clumsy, adds to my fatigue level and decreases my resilience. I'm still having a good time, and spending 4 or 5 days w/ my son in Santa Cruz has given me some recovery time; however, this has all brought home to me that I need a new set or level of coping skills.
I am just beginning to look into developing a shield, a visualization that involves surrounding myself with a protective bubble or layer that buffers the impact of stimuli and protects me.